Heard about a friend in the church just diagnosed with breast cancer, and my heart is heavy for her and for her husband. Prayer goes up to the Lord, but at the same time, I am not at left with peace. i am frustrated by this sinful world that contains sin and disease, bad news, and suffering ahead. in the words of another who heard the news, “We’ve had too much of this.”
2 I was mute and silent;
I held my peace to no avail,
and my distress grew worse.
3 My heart became hot within me.
As I mused, the fire burned;
then I spoke with my tongue:
4 “O Lord, make me know my end
and what is the measure of my days;
let me know how fleeting I am!
5 Behold, you have made my days a few handbreadths,
and my lifetime is as nothing before you.
Surely all mankind stands as a mere breath! Selah
David hits the nail on the head. There is a frustration that burns within us, that we cannot just keep silent about. David wants to keep silent, because he doesn’t want to sin, he doesn’t want to make a statement about the Lord, or about his situation that is ungodly…but at the same time he just can’t. So he speaks up and asks for some perspective, “Lord, help me get a handle on my life. on it’s length. its purpose.” All of us have these fleeting lives, ad we want to think we have more control than that.
7 “And now, O Lord, for what do I wait?
My hope is in you.
Knowing about the suffering that will come our way, and that which is beyond our control. What are we waiting for? What are we hoping for? what are we expecting? All we can do is place our complete hope in the Lord and pray:
12 “Hear my prayer, O Lord,
and give ear to my cry;
hold not your peace at my tears!
For I am a sojourner with you,
a guest, like all my fathers.
13 Look away from me, that I may smile again,
before I depart and am no more!”
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I have to say that I looked at these verses a long time for comfort. I wanted the psalm to end well. I wanted them to have the upward turn that other psalms have, with a healthy confidence in the Lord, and a smile. But David’s joy has not yet returned. John the Baptist chimes in in Luke 2:
9 Even now the axe is laid to the root of the trees. Every tree therefore that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire.” Life is fleeting!
10 And the crowds asked him, “What then shall we do?” 11 And he answered them, “Whoever has two tunics [12] is to share with him who has none, and whoever has food is to do likewise.” 12 Tax collectors also came to be baptized and said to him, “Teacher, what shall we do?” 13 And he said to them, “Collect no more than you are authorized to do.” 14 Soldiers also asked him, “And we, what shall we do?” And he said to them, “Do not extort money from anyone by threats or by false accusation, and be content with your wages.”
John says to me, and to David, “Do not let the fleeting nature of life lead you to selfishness, rather live the life God has called you to.” Perhaps the all-too-familiar reminders of our mortality are to jerk us back into the generous, other-centered lifestyle we were created for, and to remind us of our total dependence on the Lord’s grace. Pray for these friends